It's fine. I realized my friends would have questions... I just wasn't really ready to answer them until now. Even up until a few days ago I probably would have ignored this chat entirely.
I am sorry for the way I acted. To you, and everyone else.
... I'm not really sure where to start, though. Was there anything you were wondering about?
[ he's never really laid it all out like this. it feels strange, more raw and vulnerable than he wants to be by half, but there's a certain peace in finally organizing all his thoughts in one place. ]
Simply put, Souji and I don't share all the exact same memories. In fact, they diverge significantly towards the end of the year. Souji remembers ... solving things, catching the killer and saving everyone. I don't. In my memories, the killer was never caught, and certain important people were missing when I left. Whatever truly happened, I failed my family and my friends.
It was ... difficult to cope with. I questioned my worth and my existence... I kept wondering why I was even here. More than that, I believed that I would eventually lose all the people I'd come to care for here. The person they'd all be left with... I believed that would be Souji, and not me.
... but it was pointed out to me that I can't know the future, or if we'll go back to the lives in our memories. That the lives we live here are just as important, if not more so. I couldn't just shove away everyone I cared about and hope to spare them pain... it was only making things worse. If I made mistakes in that life, then I have to atone for them, instead of dwelling on a past I can't change. All I can do is keep moving forward. I owe that to the people I love, in this life and that one.
[ Akira actually finds this painful to read, but he's relieved that his friend is doing all right. Believing that you've failed everyone close to you is something he can truly empathize with—it's frightening. He knows those inspirational words well, too. One day, he hopes that he can fully embrace them as much as he preaches.
They have to move on. He's envious that Yu can do that now, but also proud. ]
your past doesn't define you, but i won't stop you in your journey for atonement.
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I am sorry for the way I acted. To you, and everyone else.
... I'm not really sure where to start, though. Was there anything you were wondering about?
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you can start from the beginning. i'll consider taking your apology after.
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[ he's never really laid it all out like this. it feels strange, more raw and vulnerable than he wants to be by half, but there's a certain peace in finally organizing all his thoughts in one place. ]
Simply put, Souji and I don't share all the exact same memories. In fact, they diverge significantly towards the end of the year. Souji remembers ... solving things, catching the killer and saving everyone. I don't. In my memories, the killer was never caught, and certain important people were missing when I left. Whatever truly happened, I failed my family and my friends.
It was ... difficult to cope with. I questioned my worth and my existence... I kept wondering why I was even here. More than that, I believed that I would eventually lose all the people I'd come to care for here. The person they'd all be left with... I believed that would be Souji, and not me.
... but it was pointed out to me that I can't know the future, or if we'll go back to the lives in our memories. That the lives we live here are just as important, if not more so. I couldn't just shove away everyone I cared about and hope to spare them pain... it was only making things worse. If I made mistakes in that life, then I have to atone for them, instead of dwelling on a past I can't change. All I can do is keep moving forward. I owe that to the people I love, in this life and that one.
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They have to move on. He's envious that Yu can do that now, but also proud. ]
your past doesn't define you, but i won't stop you in your journey for atonement.
welcome back, Yu.
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That's between you and him, isn't it?
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Let me make it up to you?
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you failed this test. 0/100
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hey.
i don't like that tone in your voice? even if you're correct, it doesn't mean you're right.
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i don't think you need to, considering i was going to break into your home and corner you.
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... you could break into my home anyway, and I could happen to have curry and coffee ready.
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do you think that will win me over?
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Probably.